Lazy Friday Night

I could go out tonight. My roommate invited me out. The only thing is usually when I go out with her it's her and her sorority sisters. Which is definitely a group that I do not fit in with. I did not have fun at all last night. We went to Tia's for Sigma Nu's social party thing. It felt like a middle school dance. Girls on one side, guys on another. Nobody dancing. For whatever reason I didn't just dance by myself. I guess because I feel like her sisters would judge the hell out of me. Which is why I don't associate with people like that. But whatever. I have decided that I will not judge myself on not doing a damn thing today, because tomorrow is going to be busy as hell. End of the year party with the Beef Studs, birthday party to hang out with DJ, and then a party tomorrow night. Honestly, I just want the semester to be overrr. I'm so sick and tired of it.

But I do have something to look forward to at least :) I get to see how this relationship with DJ will progress. It's nothing official yet, but it probably will be at some point soon. We enjoy doing the same things. We enjoy watching movies, skating, playing poker, playing cards in general. I feel like I don't have time to list all the great things about him. The only problem I forsee is his family is on the dysfunctional side. I don't wanna judge him on it obviously. No one is perfect. We'll just see how it goes. Why can't it be tomorrow yet?? :)

Messy Desks

Wow, I am distractable tonight. I wrote the title for this post and then went to Facebook for 15 minutes. But I'm back now :) ANYWAY. It's amazing to me how suffocating a messy desk can be. But I live in a dorm, so there's really no place to put these things. I really want a small filing cabinet. Or a bunch of files. I have random papers that I can't get rid of but there's no place for them, so they take up space in my drawer and on my desktop.

In similar news, there's an application for an apartment on my desk, which I super excited about. I'm a little nervous about the girl I'm living with. We had an honors class together and she can seem a little crazy... but, I'll just keep my stuff in my room. I doubt it'll be an issue. I truly doubt there's anything to worry about with my other roommate, Andy. We've been friends for almost 2 years now and he's a great guy. I have no interest in him romantically and we get along great, so I feel like this will be a good match-up.

In similar news, there's another guy that I'm romantically interested in :) Part of me is scared. I know it's a natural reaction, but that doesn't make things any easier. He wants to know if there's anything he can do. He can't change what the assholes did to me, but I can change how I handle it. It's difficult. GAH!!! Most guys suck. DJ doesn't suck so far :) so we shall see where this goes. I'm letting go of my control and letting things happen the way they will. Let the cards fall as they may. [add other similar cliches here]

So that's where my life is at this point :) seems a little disjointed, but I'm enjoying myself

4 WEEKS LEFT IN THE SEMESTER!!!!